I have just been losing it lately. I know I do, I try not to..but I do. I am worried about myself. psychiatrist put me on Lamictal about 6 weeks ago hoping to help my very often mood swings. could it be menopause? Had a total hysterectomy 4 years ago. Been suffering with hot flashes since. I have tried all the vitamins, herbal stuff...HRT patch. After a year of .025 patch I told Dr. it didn't help at all. They raised it up a tiny bit. Still no relief. Any other suggestions? I was really angry at difficult child's school yesterday and I let them know. Not a good idea. With the block scedule and getting credits at semester they cover a lot of material each day. About a month ago difficult child was sick for two days. I was told by the principal/director that is too much time to miss. Equivalent to 4 days. I told him then he was sick. He mentioned it several times in the same conversation. I told him he was throwing up should I have sent him to school? (actually he wasn't throwing up it was the other end! didn't want to tell him that) So IEP Tuesday - not happy with that. Wednesday I pick him up and he has a horrible headache. He says one of the worst. On the way home I realize he has no binder, homework. So I turn around and bring him back. He goes in gets it and gets in the car and lays down. Teacher walked him out and said she would give him until Friday for the project(two extra days) Said she could tell he wasn't feeling well. Thursday - He stayed home. Said he was really sick. Hasn't felt right since last Saturday. Within 30 minutes he was throwing up...for real this time. He asked to go to doctor. I get home from work and the dog had thrown up in three places on the carpet. Walk in the bathroom and difficult child had missed a bit...go in his room and he is laying on the floor infront of a space heater with door shut, sleeping. (he has been unbelievably tired. Sleeping all day, all night). Friday - husband was home. difficult child calls me at work and tells me he isn't feeling well. Head, throat, stomach and so very tired. I asked if he could try to make it at school. thinking he would feel better if he just started moving around. Plus husband told him he had to go. First class is engineering. Starts at 7:30. By 8 am the liason officer called to say he put his head down in class and they can't have that. So they took him to the office and will return him to class. As he was talking difficult child ran out. Threw up! (in bathroom) Officer was angry he left and sent him to class. He texted husband and asked to be picked up. They made him go to class and not use the phone. husband picked him up. And he threw up again. Slept all day and got up when I was leaving for work and went back to bed. I get an email from engineering teacher (they butt heads). Said he put his head down in class and that just cannot happen. Said it would be a safety hazard in the shop/lab area. I understand that. But he went on to say he missed two quizzes and he will make those up on Monday morning. He said if difficult child cannot stay awake he cannot be in his class. Also was suppose to have a binder check which didn't happen because difficult child left by 8am. Told me not to send him to school. OK...I lost it. I emailed him back and told him difficult child was SICK. I took him to the dr. on Thursday and if I need to supply the school with a dr. slip I can do that. I told him difficult child wanted to go to school because he is trying very hard and really is working for good grades. I then said I believe he has one day for every sick day to make up work and he would NOT be taking the quizzes on Monday. He will need to review the material that the quiz was on with him. I said we can make arrangements to come in early or stay late. (three day week next week..then following week finals for quarter) I get email back saying I should not send him to school, saftey issue, he is not keeping up with his part of the project and his partner is doing all the work...etc. I get home and difficult child tells me they were in the classroom not the shop/lab. Tells me when he went back to class after getting sick he asked someone what page they were on so he could follow along and teacher started yelling at him very loudly for talking when he was. difficult child said HE DID ALL the research for the project and partner did nothing. Also said difficult child is willing to come in an hour early and stay late. Teachers are not willing to do so. I was told they get paid from 7:25 to 2:55. (one teacher is willing) I lose it again. email him back (after taking ambien.. haven't slept more than 2 hours in 3 days) Told him I am getting mixed messages. Told he should not miss school. told him difficult child WANTED to go because he is working so hard. And..not sure what else I wrote but I was really angry and I am now afraid to logon to my email. I am losing it so often and whoever is in front of me is the target. I am really worried and don't know what to do. When I say I lose my temper...I REALLY lose my temper. I scare myself.