I hate this time of year. I really do. I get so worked up about the holidays. Usually it's bc I was always unsure of how difficult child would act around others etc. This year I'm freaking out bc difficult child is living on his own (first time ever) 2 hours away. We are still not comfortable allowing him back in our home. He's not on medications and is still a threat in my opinion even though he's been acting so sweet in his messages to me. He hasn't asked to come here yet but if he does I'm going to have to tell him no and it breaks my heart to have to do that during the holidays. He just got out of jail, is living with god know who doing god knows what, and has not been on medications in at least 3 weeks. I can't take the chance of something happening. I'm still waiting for him to answer my latest message about who he's staying with. I don't want to get myself involved too much but I'm curious. I can't even begin to imagine who it could be! Anyway I need some advice on how to handle the holidays this year. I'm not saying we'll NEVER feel comfortable having him here but we definitely don't if he's not on any medications.