I would like to welcome all of you to my pity party, I am feeling so desperate and frustrated it is suffocating. I just cannot take no more!!! My daughter has put us through utter hell over the weekend. She brought her friend (I use the term friend loosely) to my house, she is not allowed to have company because she just doesnt deserve to have that privilege. So I told her she and her friend had to leave, well that went over real well, she refused. After an hour of arguing with her she cursed me out in front of her friend and threatened to slap me, but finally did leave. When she came home all hell broke loose!! She was on my laptop, cursing me out again, going on and on, saying horrible things. My husband got so angry he snatched the computer from her, in the process cracked the screen. She got mad and threw my sons Wii on the floor and it ended up in a few pieces. She was going off, yelling and cursing and threatening us, it was crazy!!! My husband then snapped my daughter's cell phone in half and threw it in the garbage. So now she has no phone nor access to a computer, as my sister no longer allows her on her computer. Fun Fun Fun!!! We are all so sick and tired of living this way. Me and my family live upstairs and my sister and nephew live downstairs, so this affects all of us. I called my case manager and left several messages and no call back. I finally got in touch with him this morning, he doesnt want to go back to court as we have been back and forth so many times, our credibility is shot. WHAT??? I told him that this is the way it is with mental illness, she does good for a while then goes off the deep end. The last time we were in court she happened to be doing very well, now she isnt. What, was I supposed to lie in court and say that she wasnt doing well so that the next time she becomes unstable the judge will believe us??? This is nuts!!! I am so utterly frustrated and heartbroken, I dont think I can take much more. I dont have it in me to fight this battle anymore. I feel like it is all for nothing, there is never a good outcome, never. My poor family suffers daily because of my daughter. My nephew, who is 12 and my 7 year old son live in a hostile and violent environment. It isnt fair to them. My sister has stuck by me and my difficult child through it all, she is my rock. I am so lucky to have her and my husband, who isnt my daughter's bio father. We have actually talked about him leaving with my son so that he can have a chance at a normal life. What is the right thing to do for him?? I wish I knew. He is my little angel, he is a mama's boy, he would be devastated without me, and I without him. But is living this way better, or should my husband take him and move out, so my son can have some normalcy? Or would it be worse for him to leave what he knows, even though it is as bad as it is??? I am so at my wits end, I wish I could go to sleep and never wake up again. All the research I have done says that children with Borderline (BPD) cannot learn from their mistakes nor can they learn from their consequence, so what is the point of the tough love we are all giving her now? Yesterday I cried all day long, I was feeling so sad for her, trying to imagine how hard it must be to be her. That is the hard part, it is easy to hate her and be angry at her, but to actually empathize with her just hurts too much!!! I just hate my life!!! I wouldn't wish this life on my worst enemy!!!! Sorry for the long vent, I am feeling very down today. I feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel.