So we're about 2 hours away from going and picking up difficult child for Thanksgiving! I have the WORST anxiety this morning. I'm almost to the point of a full blown panic attack. I took a half of a xanax and I think it's taking the edge off but if not I will have to take the other half and risk being a space cadet. I'm so nervous that something is going to happen today. difficult child called last night because his video game broke and he was thinking about running away. UGGGG! I called and spoke with him this morning and told him straight out what is expected of him today so we shall see!! I've had nightmares all week about difficult child. One was particularly violent and I wound up with a gun shot in my back. I've been on edge ever since that dream. It was so real and so horrific and I'm just so burnt out now. I can't wait until today is OVER!