I'm a 60 yr. old single mom who, when my son turned 20 and was busting up our home, sold out and moved to a small town to get some peace. He's been in trouble with the law for harassment and has a terrible attitude towards women. He can't get along with anyone and has a behavioural disorder which he will not accept medication for or acknowledge. I suffer from a great deal of guilt as I did my best as a single parent but he, from puberty, was always resentful of any successes I had personally and felt a constant sense of competitiveness. He's on probation and has been forced, finally, to see a counsellor. But that's only once a month. His father couldn't take his behaviour anymore either so he has left the province to get away from him. I have no family support and the very few friends that I have only recently shared this with stare blank-faced with no comprehension of how to help. I'm at my wits end and don't know where to turn. I've considered suicide several times as I don't see any way that my life will change. He calls crying and begging to come live with me to get a fresh start. But I know in my heart that would be a disaster for me - he's extremely emotionally and verbally abusive and I've been told by a therapist that I need trauma therapy from the past 10 years experiences. Does anyone have any advice on how to live with breaking off, disengaging and dealing with the guilt of leaving your child in distress?