I am so tired of being tired and angry and frustrated and upset and I want to give up. This **** is just too ****in hard for me to deal with alone. We all know I have three kids all of them have ADHD, Eric in addition to that has been diagnosed as autism spectrum and oppositional defiant disorder, Danae had ADHD and Im pretty ****in sure when we go back to the shrink we'll be adding bi-polar to that diagnosis. Linda just cant get **** straight I mean for christs sake the girl is 6 and manages to get flip flops on the wrong feet. Eric sleeps in my room, the girls arent allowed in cause they all fight, and I cant take the noise level. Eric has gotten to the disturbing point where he is peeing into empty water bottles instead of going to the bathroom. He used to dress himself but is regressing and cant get his underwear on straight. The medication he is on clonidine, does nothing, and I mean nothing. He never shuts up, and whn he talk he might as well be screaming cause its just that loud, his hearing is fine we checked that already. He doesnt get along with anyone, and I am not allowed to even leave anywhere without him cause #1, my mom wont stay with him and #2 he makes a scene wherever we go. I am tired of being angry, Im tired of talking to walls, cause **** these kids dont listen, Im tired of feeling like I can never give enough to satisfy them. I dont even want to go out anymore its too hard to get them to behave. I feel like Im about to break down, and I wont because I cant, because, I have a job and bills to pay and if I dont noone will and then Ill be homeless. Im a single parent and I didnt get any manual for this insanity. There is nothing that is working, the asking nicely, doesnt work, the screaming, doesnt work, the authorive voice doesnt work, the time outs dont work, NOTHING works they dont listen, and they dont care. I want to smack all those little teenie booper girls who are like I want a baby to love me, they dont love you, they make you crazy you never sleep again, youll never know what a hot shower alone feels like, youll never know what I dont feel like cooking tonight is, youll never know what im going out throwing something on and walking out the door feels like, youll never know what its like. Somethings has got to give, and I dont think I can anymore.