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Abused children who love thier parents dearlyuntil the end
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<blockquote data-quote="DammitJanet" data-source="post: 633332" data-attributes="member: 1514"><p>I need to read that book. </p><p></p><p>I was abused as a child. I was abused as an adult. I was abused by my mother until she didnt know who I was anymore. Nothing made my mother happier than hurting me. Physically, emotionally, verbally and yes, even sexually. </p><p></p><p>Guess who took care of her when the call came in that she was at her bank and didnt know who she was. Yep, me. I am an only child and in the state I live in (or maybe it was the state she lived in, I dont know) because she wasnt eligible for medicaid, the next of kin was responsible for the parent. </p><p></p><p>My mom developed alzheimer's somewhere back in late 99 or 2000. Probably earlier than that but by the spring of 01, she was no longer able to live alone and I had to drop everything and take her in. To the end she hurt me. When she moved in she had no clue who I was though she remembered other people and her dog. She would look at pictures of me and her when I was a baby and deny that she ever had a baby. I would wonder if I was adopted but I look just like a combo of my mom and dad...lol. </p><p></p><p>I did it because I felt I had to do what I could so I could live with myself and look at myself in the mirror. Honestly I didnt expect to be upset when she died but I was. I felt like I had lost the tiny bit of hope that she would ever love me. That wasnt even a real thing to hope for because I really lost "her" to the alzheimers years before she died but her death just made it so final. I find myself to this day thinking...I wish she could have met my grandchildren.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="DammitJanet, post: 633332, member: 1514"] I need to read that book. I was abused as a child. I was abused as an adult. I was abused by my mother until she didnt know who I was anymore. Nothing made my mother happier than hurting me. Physically, emotionally, verbally and yes, even sexually. Guess who took care of her when the call came in that she was at her bank and didnt know who she was. Yep, me. I am an only child and in the state I live in (or maybe it was the state she lived in, I dont know) because she wasnt eligible for medicaid, the next of kin was responsible for the parent. My mom developed alzheimer's somewhere back in late 99 or 2000. Probably earlier than that but by the spring of 01, she was no longer able to live alone and I had to drop everything and take her in. To the end she hurt me. When she moved in she had no clue who I was though she remembered other people and her dog. She would look at pictures of me and her when I was a baby and deny that she ever had a baby. I would wonder if I was adopted but I look just like a combo of my mom and dad...lol. I did it because I felt I had to do what I could so I could live with myself and look at myself in the mirror. Honestly I didnt expect to be upset when she died but I was. I felt like I had lost the tiny bit of hope that she would ever love me. That wasnt even a real thing to hope for because I really lost "her" to the alzheimers years before she died but her death just made it so final. I find myself to this day thinking...I wish she could have met my grandchildren. [/QUOTE]
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