After his crash last fall our Insolent Whelp has managed to mostly fly under trouble radar - which of course doesn't mean something has not been going on. To us his standard answer has been that everything is just fine. We have heard about some issues through grapevine and it seems Joy has heard some more. He is seriously dragging his feet on the matter of finding a therapist, but has finally found one, though will only start in May. But I gathered that even that was only after some serious pressure from outside (likely medical staff in the team he has signed with or his sport psychologist, or both.) He is rather sullen about it. He has fully recovered from his conversion disorder and is functional in his daily life despite his other psychiatric issues. medication situation is stable and also his psychiatrist strongly presses for therapy. When I or his dad try to talk about how he is feeling or anything close to that, we get a brick wall. He 'does have to go', is in company or 'is fine' and changes the topic. About the month ago his social media messages were more worrisome (inspirational messages about how winners never give up and how hard work pays off) and at that time it seemed Joy was also hearing something that worried him, but lately Ache's social media has been soothingly more mundane. However I have reasons to suspect he has not stopped his self harming/hurting behaviours, but considering how he does those, there is no evidence. There has apparently been some room mate issues, some team mate issues and some issues with coaches too. But none of that has been too major and he has been getting by. Sport wise he struggled after his sick leave quite a lot, but after Christmas has been doing okay or even very well. He has been benched once for what smells like disciplinary action, but he gives a different story. However, even if disciplinary, it may very well be something rather mundane. However he is not bright-eyed nor enthusiastic, but more tired, callous and jaded. When we talked yesterday it seemed he was trying to pump up enthusiasm for the most important games of the season that are ahead of them, but to me it sound like he wasn't really feeling it, and not even faking it that well. He doesn't seem connected or bonded to his team and is mostly committed to his own performance though he of course talks the talk (even to me, but not with much gusto.) Not a good sign. One way or another his season will end in few weeks and he is likely to stay at home for week or two after that (depending what else he plans to do with his vacation) and I guess I will get more out of him, when he is actually here where I can see him and touch him. So hanging there, but not much else.