Marguerite
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TryingHard, you said, "my brother gets to hear the updates from the sessions on what monsters we are for treating her the way we do, how my dad is horrible, how the world is against her and she is the only one who has it all together."
You both know what your mother is like - so why do you always instinctively beleive what she says someone else has said?
My best friend (the one I mentioned before, wth the toxic father) will collect "lame ducks" and try to help them. Sometimes they are lame for a reason. One 'friend' in particular became one of my online stalkers because she was jealous that my friend was friends with anyone else (ie me). And still, even though my friend finally learned how muc h she was being lied to, will still say, "Did you know X is true?"
I ask her, "Who told you that?"
She would say, "ex-friend told me her neighbour said so. She said her neighbour had told her how much she hates me."
Again I remind her, "So you would rather believe ex-friend, who you know to be a liar, then her neighbour who you used to believe was your friend?"
Your mother MAY be getting told these things by her therapist; but her therapist is limited by what she is told by your mother. "Your children did WHAT to you? That is appalling, they should be ashamed of themselves!"
Also, it's quite possible your mother is either only hearing what she wants to hear; or is making it all up when she talks to your brother. "My therapist told me I'm beautiful, talented, caring, compassionate and I don't deserve such horrible children. And my therapist also said I'm going to be the next man on the moon."
Any of this is possible. None of it is believable.
Your mother's therapist (assuming he/she even exists) is NOT your therapist or your brother's. Therefore anything she says is not designed to be specifically to your benefit. It is therefore not relevant.
The only therapist advice which IS relevant, is advice from your own therapists.
The part of you (and your brother) wanting a loving, caring mother is the child inside you who was abandoned and neglected because of her narcissism. You need to get back in touch with that child and be the mother for her that you never had. There is a meditation you can do where you as an adult go back and take that child by the hand and lead them out of that environment.
I think until you and your brother can do this, the child inside each of you will be begging for another chance to make peace with a woman who simply doesn't know how to be a mother.
Marg
You both know what your mother is like - so why do you always instinctively beleive what she says someone else has said?
My best friend (the one I mentioned before, wth the toxic father) will collect "lame ducks" and try to help them. Sometimes they are lame for a reason. One 'friend' in particular became one of my online stalkers because she was jealous that my friend was friends with anyone else (ie me). And still, even though my friend finally learned how muc h she was being lied to, will still say, "Did you know X is true?"
I ask her, "Who told you that?"
She would say, "ex-friend told me her neighbour said so. She said her neighbour had told her how much she hates me."
Again I remind her, "So you would rather believe ex-friend, who you know to be a liar, then her neighbour who you used to believe was your friend?"
Your mother MAY be getting told these things by her therapist; but her therapist is limited by what she is told by your mother. "Your children did WHAT to you? That is appalling, they should be ashamed of themselves!"
Also, it's quite possible your mother is either only hearing what she wants to hear; or is making it all up when she talks to your brother. "My therapist told me I'm beautiful, talented, caring, compassionate and I don't deserve such horrible children. And my therapist also said I'm going to be the next man on the moon."
Any of this is possible. None of it is believable.
Your mother's therapist (assuming he/she even exists) is NOT your therapist or your brother's. Therefore anything she says is not designed to be specifically to your benefit. It is therefore not relevant.
The only therapist advice which IS relevant, is advice from your own therapists.
The part of you (and your brother) wanting a loving, caring mother is the child inside you who was abandoned and neglected because of her narcissism. You need to get back in touch with that child and be the mother for her that you never had. There is a meditation you can do where you as an adult go back and take that child by the hand and lead them out of that environment.
I think until you and your brother can do this, the child inside each of you will be begging for another chance to make peace with a woman who simply doesn't know how to be a mother.
Marg