I'm new here, so sharing some of this still feels weird, but you are truly the only people I have found who will understand, so here goes: difficult child went back to school yesterday (Wednesday) after a 3 day suspension for hitting 2 teachers. Had some real success at home (with 1-2-3 Magic) and we were feeling good about sending him back. This afternoon (Thursday) he had a complete meltdown, hit the principal, and ended up with a 5-day suspension! And he broke his glasses (I had just replaced the lenses last month). To boot, my husband and I are both teachers, so there's something particularly mortifying about all this hideous behavior. We are in the process of starting the IEP paperwork. Everyone at school knows he's a loose cannon; they just don't know how to handle it. My husband actually bought them the 1-2-3 Magic dvd, but it hasn't yet arrived. I really, truly had to talk myself out of killing myself tonight. I haven't ever been this low. I just hate this roller coaster with every fiber of my being. It kills me that nearly everyone gets a "normal" kid but me. In any case, I'm better now and have pulled myself together, so no need to worry or give me hotline numbers. I just had one of those moments when it all seemed entirely too much. Thanks for listening.