Marcie Mac
Just Plain Ole Tired
Thank you all so much for the good wishes, prayers, juju, and naked chicken liver dances. LOL
Have been suffering with Diverticulitis since Sept and should have gone in to see what was up in November as I knew something wasn't quite right. But, just blew it off with my usual "I am perfectly fine" positive attitude, everything is ok, blah blah blah, I can handle this. And for the first time, it didn't work so well
I had a colonostopy test on the 5th and on the 7th was in ER and ended up having my small colon removed for a severe blockage and am hoping when I heal I can get rid of this dang bag I have to have for the time being. doctor told SO had I waited another day or two, I would have been dead and instead of my dear friend TM writing a post I was ill she would have had to write one that I had gone. That was kinda scarey for my beloved SO - me not so much as I was pretty well out of it and nothing was registering with my brain till after the fog had cleared a bit.
I have learned a few needed lessons from this - 1. Stress can and will do you in maybe not right away, but eventually - doesn't have to only affect your heart, but can affect your stomach - big time. 2. Eat right and make sure you have a lot of fiber in your diet, and exercise, even if it is only a walk around the block. 3. LISTEN to what your body is telling you, and do NOT think you can diagnose yourself via the internet. Its ok to check with friends to see if anyone has had a similar symptom, but at the end of the day call the doctor. Had no idea of looking up "pain lower left abdominal quadrant" would bring up so many things it could be.
And last, do not blow smoke up you know where to loved ones. I didn't realize exactly how selfish I was insisting all was ok when it really wasn't - seeing my SO and kids cry as they thought they were going to lose me - THAT was a real eye opener. Somehow in the moment of dealing with difficult child's and life in general, we never ever give a thought to ourselves- of course, our children are so important, our husband's and SO's are so important, OUR importance in the whole scheme of things seems to get pushed to the end of the line.
Its getting too hard to sit but I did want to thank you all - you are all wonderful friends. I do keep up with you all -sometimes I don't know what to say, or I see to much of my younger self in your difficult child's and I don't know what to say, sometimes it is too painful to look back and I just can't say anything, but you are all never far from my thoughts.
Hugs
Marcie
Have been suffering with Diverticulitis since Sept and should have gone in to see what was up in November as I knew something wasn't quite right. But, just blew it off with my usual "I am perfectly fine" positive attitude, everything is ok, blah blah blah, I can handle this. And for the first time, it didn't work so well
I had a colonostopy test on the 5th and on the 7th was in ER and ended up having my small colon removed for a severe blockage and am hoping when I heal I can get rid of this dang bag I have to have for the time being. doctor told SO had I waited another day or two, I would have been dead and instead of my dear friend TM writing a post I was ill she would have had to write one that I had gone. That was kinda scarey for my beloved SO - me not so much as I was pretty well out of it and nothing was registering with my brain till after the fog had cleared a bit.I have learned a few needed lessons from this - 1. Stress can and will do you in maybe not right away, but eventually - doesn't have to only affect your heart, but can affect your stomach - big time. 2. Eat right and make sure you have a lot of fiber in your diet, and exercise, even if it is only a walk around the block. 3. LISTEN to what your body is telling you, and do NOT think you can diagnose yourself via the internet. Its ok to check with friends to see if anyone has had a similar symptom, but at the end of the day call the doctor. Had no idea of looking up "pain lower left abdominal quadrant" would bring up so many things it could be.
And last, do not blow smoke up you know where to loved ones. I didn't realize exactly how selfish I was insisting all was ok when it really wasn't - seeing my SO and kids cry as they thought they were going to lose me - THAT was a real eye opener. Somehow in the moment of dealing with difficult child's and life in general, we never ever give a thought to ourselves- of course, our children are so important, our husband's and SO's are so important, OUR importance in the whole scheme of things seems to get pushed to the end of the line.
Its getting too hard to sit but I did want to thank you all - you are all wonderful friends. I do keep up with you all -sometimes I don't know what to say, or I see to much of my younger self in your difficult child's and I don't know what to say, sometimes it is too painful to look back and I just can't say anything, but you are all never far from my thoughts.
Hugs
Marcie
I'm glad you're back! And I am glad it wasn't another day or so. We love you!!!
