Okay so my boyfriend has a bad hip. He injured it playing softball several years ago and he never got it checked out until a few weeks ago. He went to see a chiropractor who did twelve adjustments for $300. My boyfriend can't afford to see the chiro any longer so he stopped going. His hip still causes him a lot of pain. The chiropractor suggested he do water excercises in a swimming pool to help relieve the pain and heal it faster. My boyfriend doesn't have a pool, but we have one at our apartment complex. My boyfriend texted me yesterday to ask me if he can use our pool three nights a week to do his excercises. He told me not to worry about it if it was too much of an inconvenience. He's been in a lot of pain lately and I really hated to say no, even though it really IS an inconvenience for me. When I get home at night I'm so tired I'm pretty much useless. I make dinner, take a shower, eat, and watch a couple of my shows before crashing around 7:30 or 8. If my son has homework I help him with that, but other than that I don't really do much but watch a couple of shows then crash. The Geodon I'm taking absolutely has to be taken a full stomach or it doesn't work. I have no choice but to take it with dinner when we eat at six. Usually it takes an hour to two hours to make me fall asleep, depending on how much I've eaten and how tired I am. Then I wake up at one or two in the morning and can't get back to sleep. I really treasure those few hours of sleep I get, even if it means falling asleep at seven or eight. My boyfriend coming over three nights a week is really going to get in the way of my routine. When I'm home after work, I do not feel like conversation. All I want to do is eat, relax, and watch TV. I am not the best company until the weekend rolls around. Then I eat my dinner later and take my pills later so I stay up late and I'm fine with carrying on a conversation. During the week? Not so much. I've already told my boyfriend not to expect me to stay out there with him when he's at the pool. I will be inside with the kids. Was that mean of me? I sorta feel obligated to go out there with him but I really don't want to! I want to watch my shows and eat. He will be coming over at six which is right at dinner time. When he comes over I am going to hand the keys to the pool to him, go back inside, eat, and watch my shows. Am I being harsh? I know I should want to spend as much time as possible with him, and I really do love him, but I have no desire to see him until the weekends. He has hinted in the past about how it would be nice to live together and won't it be great to wake up to each other every single day? Great for him, but not me! I have been on my own now for seven years come November. I enjoy my alone time. I do not wish to live with anybody else besides the kids for a really really long time. Maybe when they're grown up I'll change my mind, but not now. Tonight will be the first night he comes over. I am not looking forward to it. Besides not wanting any interruptions to my routine, my house is messy because I don't clean during the week. I save all of the cleaning for Saturday. Usually he comes over on Saturday nights and so far all he's seen is a clean house from me. He has never seen it this bad. Now I feel obligated to clean during the week for when he comes over. I don't want to! But I'm going to have to. Am I being out of line for feeling this way? I feel selfish but I really don't want him coming over!