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<blockquote data-quote="GuideMe" data-source="post: 642309" data-attributes="member: 18233"><p>And there is one thing I do agree with you on MWM, and that is, she should absolutely not be feel made to go. I totally agree with you on that. I was just offering an idea because the outcome of what I suggested, 99% of the time feels so good for me. It really is a great feeling. However, what you said is a real close runner up. I stopped going to the big family affairs long ago and while I use to feel guilty for it sometimes, I do not anymore for the exact reasons you stated and I'm glad you state those reasons because it just reinforces how I feel/felt about the situations and how in the end, I did make the right choice for me. However, if we are being totally honest here, there are times where I wished I confronted some of my family members, stood up for myself, that's the only thing I regret and it's a major regret that I have. If I had just said something, anything, I wouldn't be so angry today. I truly, truly regret not confronting some of my family members. And when I say confronting, that could mean standing up for myself or just talking to them about an issue, even if the outcome did not go my way. I hate that I felt so terrified of what they might say if I addressed the issue with them. I hated feeling terrified of them rejecting my feelings, calling me stupid ,crazy, getting angry at me or just laughing at me. I was so scared of all of that and I realize now, <em><u>now</u></em>, that I should never have been so afraid. I put them up on such a high pedestal and it was ridiculous. Now I'm like,<strong><em><u> so what</u></em></strong> if they responded in all those ways???? Why was I so afraid of what they thought??? They are no better than me, and in the end , even if I was outcasted from saying how I felt, guess what, I'm in that position today ANYWAY BUT THE KICKER IS, I NEVER GOT TO SAY HOW I FELT! I wounded up in the same position that I was deathly afraid of no matter what I did! It is a terrible, terrible feeling to have to live with right now, today as we speak. They look down on me or feel negatively about me anyway, so I really had NOTHING to lose back then. It's souly the reason why I have so much anger. I also feel that maybe, just maybe, if I talked it out with SOME of my family members, things could have been squashed and I could have actually had a good relationship with some of them. I was just so afraid to speak back then, again, out of fear. </p><p></p><p>B<em>ut guess what? I plan very soon, to address as many of them as I possibly can. It's not over yet. I already confronted two of them and I can not wait to address the rest. I am just waiting for the right time, I will redeem myself.</em></p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="GuideMe, post: 642309, member: 18233"] And there is one thing I do agree with you on MWM, and that is, she should absolutely not be feel made to go. I totally agree with you on that. I was just offering an idea because the outcome of what I suggested, 99% of the time feels so good for me. It really is a great feeling. However, what you said is a real close runner up. I stopped going to the big family affairs long ago and while I use to feel guilty for it sometimes, I do not anymore for the exact reasons you stated and I'm glad you state those reasons because it just reinforces how I feel/felt about the situations and how in the end, I did make the right choice for me. However, if we are being totally honest here, there are times where I wished I confronted some of my family members, stood up for myself, that's the only thing I regret and it's a major regret that I have. If I had just said something, anything, I wouldn't be so angry today. I truly, truly regret not confronting some of my family members. And when I say confronting, that could mean standing up for myself or just talking to them about an issue, even if the outcome did not go my way. I hate that I felt so terrified of what they might say if I addressed the issue with them. I hated feeling terrified of them rejecting my feelings, calling me stupid ,crazy, getting angry at me or just laughing at me. I was so scared of all of that and I realize now, [I][U]now[/U][/I], that I should never have been so afraid. I put them up on such a high pedestal and it was ridiculous. Now I'm like,[B][I][U] so what[/U][/I][/B] if they responded in all those ways???? Why was I so afraid of what they thought??? They are no better than me, and in the end , even if I was outcasted from saying how I felt, guess what, I'm in that position today ANYWAY BUT THE KICKER IS, I NEVER GOT TO SAY HOW I FELT! I wounded up in the same position that I was deathly afraid of no matter what I did! It is a terrible, terrible feeling to have to live with right now, today as we speak. They look down on me or feel negatively about me anyway, so I really had NOTHING to lose back then. It's souly the reason why I have so much anger. I also feel that maybe, just maybe, if I talked it out with SOME of my family members, things could have been squashed and I could have actually had a good relationship with some of them. I was just so afraid to speak back then, again, out of fear. B[I]ut guess what? I plan very soon, to address as many of them as I possibly can. It's not over yet. I already confronted two of them and I can not wait to address the rest. I am just waiting for the right time, I will redeem myself.[/I] [/QUOTE]
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