So of course I could not actually follow the advice to "smile and nod" and when Kat called tonight I lost it. I was doing ok, just kind of going with-the conversation- whatever. Then she asks if I will keep K overnight on May 10 because it's IG's birthday. So I told her I have a work trip that day and I work the following day, so no I won't keep the baby. Then I ask if that's why she's been calling and chatting me up lately, so that I would watch K. She actually said, "Why would you say that? That's mean." So I freakin' lost it. I told her exactly why I would say that and everything that I'm angry about and she called me a liar, which got me even madder. So I was on the phone screaming like an insane person, which of course does no good for anyone. She told me I was acting all innocent when I have taken advantage of her too. I was astounded and asked what she meant. When she was staying here the last time I told her she needed to pay 1/2 the bills. She said she would just fill my propane tank- which was about $600. So over the course of 4 months she paid me a grand total of $600- a bargain if you ask me. But according to her I couldn't pay that money and she bailed me out, so I was using her for her money. OMG- PUHLEEZ!!!! I finally just hung up on her. At any rate, this is just more a cathartic rant than anything because now I'm still mad and I won't sleep well tonight. I can't really talk to anyone else about this because they don't get it, so here I am posting more insanity! Will it never end? And when will I learn to deal with this more positively, just for my own sake? ARGGGHHHHH!