I'm so tired today, difficult child had me up all night last night throwing up and he is loud, did I say LOUD! Jeesh! With everything going on, I call atty. and he said he has 3 options, 1 take the plea (2-4) try and negotiate (they aren't backing down right now on this), 2) plead open guilty try and negotiate it, let judge decide (supposedly woman fair) or go to trial. How the heck am I supposed to decide or difficult child to decide on what to do? We've never gone thru this before, I want him to get rehab, asked for this, don't know if atty asked, don't know what is best option, he isn't going to know (difficult child) what to do, if he goes to a state prison, I'm afraid for him. He won't make it, then I'll lose 2 sons. I can't handle the thought of this, why can't they send these people who need the help to go get the help instead of locking them up and making it worse. I know this is coming from a mother's heart, but I am seriously worried if he gets sent to state prison he will die. I can't handle this at all. He is a mess, he cries all the time, but yet he doesn't try and get help, he never looked for ajob, he won't go to nar anon, or counseling I think he just decided he is going away why try??? Sure sounds like this by talking with atty. I'm a mess, and hoping my sister can go with me. Dealing with difficult child in am before court is close to impossible. I had to take a xanex last time he had me so upset. Saying he is going to kill himself, etc. It's a nightmare. And with Tim gone, I just feel so useless, so incomplete, like I just don't care anymore because nothing I do ever comes about right, nothing seems to work out. I want him to get help so badly, I'm so wishing all this never happened, there is nothing I can do and I don't even know anything about the legal system at all, I wouldn't even know where to start. I remeber, I think it was Ant's mom?? who said about getting an 800 #???? Janet is that right??? I'm thinking all the worse only because that's what always seems to happen lately. Atty needs to talk with difficult child, and give him all this so he is aware of it, because I'm sure not telling him! Plus, he (atty) said he wants to ask for another delay, why would we keep delaying this? Is there any sense to delay the inevitable???? I don't understand this, I'm so clueless!