After attending school 3 days out of the last 4 months, difficult child was supposed to start back to school today going to one class. Could they make it any easier? One lousy hour at school. And she won't get up. Says she's too tired, didn't sleep much last night, she'll go tomorrow. Just like old times. Nothing will be any different tomorrow. The stupid time change doesn't make things any easier. I hate her right now. Now I have to call and tell the counselor she won't be there. It's always me that has to clean up the mess she makes. I know she's horribly anxious. It doesn't help that she's in the middle of switching medications and isn't on a full dose of the new one (Zoloft) yet. The new psychiatrist only focused on the depression, and didn't really address the anxiety. If difficult child doesn't go tomorrow, I'm going to call the psychiatrist and ask about something "as needed" for anxiety. I wish I could just give her a piece of my xanax. I know adults with social anxiety often use that kind of medications right before an anxiety-producing situation. I can see why they wouldn't want to give it to kids (abuse potential), but then our kids are on all kinds of stuff not normally prescribed for kids because they can't function without it. I really think if she had something which works directly and immediately on anxiety a few hours before she needs to leave, or the night before to help her sleep without worrying, it would help. SHe did have her sleep study on Saturday and was (a miracle) able to sleep most of the time. I was happy about that. Now I'm mad again. I'm supposed to feel sorry for her? What about my social anxiety and fear of authority figures? it has killed me to have to deal with her schools, I'm terrified of that, I'm on 3 psychiatric medications myself, and I feel really traumatized by some of those encounters, but I do it any way.