As you all know my anxiety levels climb mountains it seems every day here lately with the passing of my dad and i have been in a few car accidents and it just seems new challenges happen every day. Today I went to the clinic to pick up my refill of my usual busbar medications that I am on. husband was in the passenger seat and I don't know what happened but i had a little anxiety attack and floored the (RENTAL CAR) when I pulled in the parking space and almost hit the building. I just busted out crying when I turned the car off. I went into the clinic and went to the nurses station and begged them to go ask my doctor to see me and/or put me on something stronger. She said I need to come back tomorrow and he will see me then. In the mean time, the body shop called this afternoon and my car was ready to be picked up. No problem. I get to the end of my street and the storm from hell blew in. I had to stop and put gas in the rental car before turning it in and by that point the streets were flooded and quarter sized hail was pumelling me standing at the gas pump. 2 hours later I arrive back home only for difficult child to ask me if I will drive him to a friends house. While I am standing there dripping onto the carpet. I said you are kidding right? I will only leave this house if it is on fire. My doctor had given me ten Adavan pills several months ago. I never took them then, but have taken all 10 in the last few weeks. I LOVE adavan. husband is a nurse and he said there is no way my doctor will put me on adavan permenantly. He said its a narcotic and very addictive. My question is SO WHAT?? I will be on whatever else for the rest of my life, why not give me the good stuff? Busbar makes me jittery and want to eat all the time. I need something stronger but not sure of what is good out there.