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toughlovin
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Hi all,
Yes I had a nice weekend away with hubby. Worried about both kids somewhat, didn't hear much from my easy child daughter which means she is having a good time and heard nothing from difficult child which was probably a good thing.
He did call tonight (after we were back home). He is miserable at detox. Really struggling and does not think they know what they are doing. According to him they are giving him methadone which helps for about 20 minutes, he does not think they are giving him enough. He is withdrawing from opiates which he has not had to do before... he told me this stuff you get addicted to really quickly. The last time I talked to him he said he had been doing percosets but I really think it is heroin and he just didnt want to admit that to me.
So the way he described the place it sounded like a state hospital... and I was feeling worried and sorry for him. He asked if I could look up this place he had seen a sign for and call him back. So I looked t up and it was for some training program. So I looked up info on another very well respected place in yet another state. He says he needed to get out of where he is because he either is having 12 step progrmas shoved down his throat or drugs being pushed at him.
So here I was feeling sorry for him, wondering if we should pay for yet another treatment program, getting sucked in once again!!!
I called him back.... told him the first place was not a tx program. Told him about the other place and gave him the number.... at which point he started in about would I have to stay in some foresaken place and not come back. I said I don't know it depends on how you do. He was obviously angry.... then he told me to look up holistic recovery programs, that 12 step programs are "retarded".... I said "I don't know" you are going to have to figure it out... at which point he swore at me and hung up!!!
Well then I stopped being sucked in. That is the good thing when he gets angry when he doesnt get me to do what he wants... it puts things back into perspective.
So I am feeling rather hopeless tonight.... here he is wanting an easy way out of drug addiction.. and he wants me to fix it for him... and he is not serious really about recovering... he just wants to stop being dopesick.. which I am sure is miserable. I am sure the detox place is making sure he is ok medically but they may not be too sympathetic too him.... because I am sure he has a real attitude and is giving them sass that they don't know what they are doing.
So no I did not try to call him back and I am not going to. He will probably call me eventually.
He did bring out the feelings of guilt I have about sending him to a TBS after wilderness... except that I know without a doubt when I think of where he was at... that he would have ended up in this same place even younger than he is now. It did give him some time..... but really this having a drug addicted kid sucks big time!
TL
Yes I had a nice weekend away with hubby. Worried about both kids somewhat, didn't hear much from my easy child daughter which means she is having a good time and heard nothing from difficult child which was probably a good thing.
He did call tonight (after we were back home). He is miserable at detox. Really struggling and does not think they know what they are doing. According to him they are giving him methadone which helps for about 20 minutes, he does not think they are giving him enough. He is withdrawing from opiates which he has not had to do before... he told me this stuff you get addicted to really quickly. The last time I talked to him he said he had been doing percosets but I really think it is heroin and he just didnt want to admit that to me.
So the way he described the place it sounded like a state hospital... and I was feeling worried and sorry for him. He asked if I could look up this place he had seen a sign for and call him back. So I looked t up and it was for some training program. So I looked up info on another very well respected place in yet another state. He says he needed to get out of where he is because he either is having 12 step progrmas shoved down his throat or drugs being pushed at him.
So here I was feeling sorry for him, wondering if we should pay for yet another treatment program, getting sucked in once again!!!
I called him back.... told him the first place was not a tx program. Told him about the other place and gave him the number.... at which point he started in about would I have to stay in some foresaken place and not come back. I said I don't know it depends on how you do. He was obviously angry.... then he told me to look up holistic recovery programs, that 12 step programs are "retarded".... I said "I don't know" you are going to have to figure it out... at which point he swore at me and hung up!!!
Well then I stopped being sucked in. That is the good thing when he gets angry when he doesnt get me to do what he wants... it puts things back into perspective.
So I am feeling rather hopeless tonight.... here he is wanting an easy way out of drug addiction.. and he wants me to fix it for him... and he is not serious really about recovering... he just wants to stop being dopesick.. which I am sure is miserable. I am sure the detox place is making sure he is ok medically but they may not be too sympathetic too him.... because I am sure he has a real attitude and is giving them sass that they don't know what they are doing.
So no I did not try to call him back and I am not going to. He will probably call me eventually.
He did bring out the feelings of guilt I have about sending him to a TBS after wilderness... except that I know without a doubt when I think of where he was at... that he would have ended up in this same place even younger than he is now. It did give him some time..... but really this having a drug addicted kid sucks big time!
TL