Steely
Active Member
Hey guys
I think it would take me forever to tell you all that has gone on in the last 3 weeks. It is unbelievable the drama, discovery & transformation, that has happened in such a short time.
Moving from Dallas was unlike any other event I have experienced. The core emotions that enveloped me in Dallas seemed to metaphorically manifest themselves physically as I was leaving the state of Texas.
No one seems to really knows what happened - but the guess is - is that I had transient spastic quadraparesis induced by hyperventilation, induced by low potassium. I found this description of what happened on the internet and the they describe it better than I could have. The following is an exact description of me when the paramedics found me, and I was careflighted from the side of the freeway to a local hospital. Thankfully my mom and dad were there, because I would not have been able to call 911.
The patient was found lying supine with both arms and legs extended, and both wrists in extreme flexion (carpopedal spasm), looking upwards and breathing vigorously. The patient had experienced sudden spastic paresis involving both upper and lower extremities, with loss of passive ability to straighten her upper extremities, and a high muscle tone.
I truly thought I was dying. It was the scariest thing I have ever gone through. I was completely paralyzed, yet conscious, throwing up, and hyperventilating.
Unfortunately, once I stabilized, the ER doctors seemed uninterested in finding the root cause of what happened so I am still not sure what the diagnosis is - and obviously I still have to go the Dr here in Az. However, I am better, and the entire episode made me look at life completely different.
I have been here 10 days, and I love every inch of Arizona. It is absolutely the best decision I have ever made in my life. The beauty is breathtaking. The people are wonderful. I have made more friends here in one week, than I did in a year in Dallas. Driving home at night is now the best part of the day because I can look at the amazing mountains, lake, and terrain. It is breathtakingly peaceful.
The job is great, but, very intense. I know I will like it, but it is pretty all consuming right now.
I am in a whole new arena of life now. Both my job and this small town culture demand I become social. I have most of my days and nights booked it seems. It truly is forcing me out of my isolative shell, and causing me to be whole.
Matthew is struggling a bit - as his dad did some really, really crummy things to him during these last 3 weeks - and he just seems to still be so mentally conflicted. My heart still hearts so much for him.
I was thinking about all of you today, and missing you. I feel so weird not being on the board for days on end. I think I will find a rhythym and a groove to this new lifestyle - and hopefully be able to weave in time for me. I miss writing, you guys, and walking my dogs every night (they are going bonkers with mom being gone so much) - but I know it is temporary.
My mid life crisis is unfolding.......but it is good.
I think it would take me forever to tell you all that has gone on in the last 3 weeks. It is unbelievable the drama, discovery & transformation, that has happened in such a short time.
Moving from Dallas was unlike any other event I have experienced. The core emotions that enveloped me in Dallas seemed to metaphorically manifest themselves physically as I was leaving the state of Texas.
No one seems to really knows what happened - but the guess is - is that I had transient spastic quadraparesis induced by hyperventilation, induced by low potassium. I found this description of what happened on the internet and the they describe it better than I could have. The following is an exact description of me when the paramedics found me, and I was careflighted from the side of the freeway to a local hospital. Thankfully my mom and dad were there, because I would not have been able to call 911.
The patient was found lying supine with both arms and legs extended, and both wrists in extreme flexion (carpopedal spasm), looking upwards and breathing vigorously. The patient had experienced sudden spastic paresis involving both upper and lower extremities, with loss of passive ability to straighten her upper extremities, and a high muscle tone.
I truly thought I was dying. It was the scariest thing I have ever gone through. I was completely paralyzed, yet conscious, throwing up, and hyperventilating.
Unfortunately, once I stabilized, the ER doctors seemed uninterested in finding the root cause of what happened so I am still not sure what the diagnosis is - and obviously I still have to go the Dr here in Az. However, I am better, and the entire episode made me look at life completely different.
I have been here 10 days, and I love every inch of Arizona. It is absolutely the best decision I have ever made in my life. The beauty is breathtaking. The people are wonderful. I have made more friends here in one week, than I did in a year in Dallas. Driving home at night is now the best part of the day because I can look at the amazing mountains, lake, and terrain. It is breathtakingly peaceful.
The job is great, but, very intense. I know I will like it, but it is pretty all consuming right now.
I am in a whole new arena of life now. Both my job and this small town culture demand I become social. I have most of my days and nights booked it seems. It truly is forcing me out of my isolative shell, and causing me to be whole.
Matthew is struggling a bit - as his dad did some really, really crummy things to him during these last 3 weeks - and he just seems to still be so mentally conflicted. My heart still hearts so much for him.
I was thinking about all of you today, and missing you. I feel so weird not being on the board for days on end. I think I will find a rhythym and a groove to this new lifestyle - and hopefully be able to weave in time for me. I miss writing, you guys, and walking my dogs every night (they are going bonkers with mom being gone so much) - but I know it is temporary.
My mid life crisis is unfolding.......but it is good.
