BusynMember
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Hi there. Sorry about your rough night. I think all of us have had heartbreaking nights, trust me. We get it. To post on the PE board just put your next post over there. All of us go there regularly and it's a great group.
If you can't find a NAMI or CODA, I recommend Nar-Anon or Al-Anon since he seems to be addicted to drugs and Al-Anon is pretty much the same as Nar-Anon and those groups are everywhere. They are even online.
Think about Thanksgiving this way. We all have had to learn to think outside of normal society's terms. We do not have normal grown kids and our holidays are different because of that. Think of how much more peaceful your holiday will be without him there. Plus his presence would make you feel guilty, right? You may actually be able to enjoy the rest of your loved ones, and they deserve that and you deserve that love too. This girl doesn't sound like good news to me either and frankly I wouldn't have her in my house. You have no idea if she dangerous, if she steals, if she will cause a scene...at least you know your son. Doesn't sound like she'd be a good addition to the table to me.
You are not doing anything bad to your son. He is the one ruining his life. He refuses to take his medications? Then he will continue to be sick, and you can't make him well. If he had pneumonia or AIDS and refused his medications, you would expect him to stay sick. These brain disorders are also biological in basis and he does need medication. But, being an adult (I use the word loosely and only in legal terms) nobody can make him take anything. He has to come to that conclusion on his own. So it is sort of a waste of time to angst over what he refuses to do because you can't get inside of him and make him help himself. He seems to be good at surviving. Most of our kids are. They panhandle for money and couch surf or sleep in the park (their choice mostly because they refuse to give up drugs) and blow any checks they get...your son is not really unusual in our world.
I do want you to know that my daughter used heavy drugs and quit. There is always hope. Leave the door open for your son in case he sincerely does want to change his life and needs your support while in a rehab. But it is meaner to enable him than to let him learn himself that his way is no way to live. It is extremely difficult to do it, but as time goes by, and we see how useless it is to try, we have mostly been able to do a significant amount of detaching. Doesn't mean we never slip up, but we are good for one another. We are a caring group and we will help each other.
In the meantime, maybe do something you love to do but have been ignoring due to your fear over your son. You deserve a full, happy and rich life in spite of your son's choices. Maybe do something with your other kids. I don't know their ages, but if they are younger...watch a movie together or take them out for dinner, if you have the $$$. If they are older, make a date with one of them and spend mom time with one of them.
Many hugs and hope to get to "know" you better.
If you can't find a NAMI or CODA, I recommend Nar-Anon or Al-Anon since he seems to be addicted to drugs and Al-Anon is pretty much the same as Nar-Anon and those groups are everywhere. They are even online.
Think about Thanksgiving this way. We all have had to learn to think outside of normal society's terms. We do not have normal grown kids and our holidays are different because of that. Think of how much more peaceful your holiday will be without him there. Plus his presence would make you feel guilty, right? You may actually be able to enjoy the rest of your loved ones, and they deserve that and you deserve that love too. This girl doesn't sound like good news to me either and frankly I wouldn't have her in my house. You have no idea if she dangerous, if she steals, if she will cause a scene...at least you know your son. Doesn't sound like she'd be a good addition to the table to me.
You are not doing anything bad to your son. He is the one ruining his life. He refuses to take his medications? Then he will continue to be sick, and you can't make him well. If he had pneumonia or AIDS and refused his medications, you would expect him to stay sick. These brain disorders are also biological in basis and he does need medication. But, being an adult (I use the word loosely and only in legal terms) nobody can make him take anything. He has to come to that conclusion on his own. So it is sort of a waste of time to angst over what he refuses to do because you can't get inside of him and make him help himself. He seems to be good at surviving. Most of our kids are. They panhandle for money and couch surf or sleep in the park (their choice mostly because they refuse to give up drugs) and blow any checks they get...your son is not really unusual in our world.
I do want you to know that my daughter used heavy drugs and quit. There is always hope. Leave the door open for your son in case he sincerely does want to change his life and needs your support while in a rehab. But it is meaner to enable him than to let him learn himself that his way is no way to live. It is extremely difficult to do it, but as time goes by, and we see how useless it is to try, we have mostly been able to do a significant amount of detaching. Doesn't mean we never slip up, but we are good for one another. We are a caring group and we will help each other.
In the meantime, maybe do something you love to do but have been ignoring due to your fear over your son. You deserve a full, happy and rich life in spite of your son's choices. Maybe do something with your other kids. I don't know their ages, but if they are younger...watch a movie together or take them out for dinner, if you have the $$$. If they are older, make a date with one of them and spend mom time with one of them.
Many hugs and hope to get to "know" you better.