I haven't slept well in a while. But it's worse since last Thursday. That was the day he slapped his brother and I found out Dad (EX) is planning his c*** this coming Summer. Then Friday he had a horrid day at school, called his teacher an awful name and pulled the knife from the drawer. Yesterday morning I called his doctor to discuss possible medication changes. He never returned my call (and I called again to make sure the nurse got my message). So, I spent all last night dreaming that either the doctor has "fired" us...or that he is trying to figure out just what the heck to do with us...OR he's planning on putting him in hospital. OMG. I know I am now feeling desperate and paranoid. But I literally spent all night trying to get a hold of my ex, my husband. Pick him up from school. Keep calm. Pack clothes. Explain it to him. Try not to cry. Worry. Half dreaming...half awake. Going back to sleep to start all over again. I bet I spent 4-5 hours yesterday online researching, googling stuff...and it never seems to answer any real questions. Just create more worry or frusteration. He is on a medication for ADHD--it isn't proving to be real effective. He is on a medication for Depression--the school's evaluation showed "clinically signifigant" re depression. He talked suicide w her! He is on a medication for mood/aggression. HA. WTH!? I feel like the little chicken running around screaming "the sky is falling" and no one believes me--but this time the SKY IS REALLY FALLING!!! Calling the doctor again... and then trying to take a nap.