Hi, everyone. Just need to vent some regarding last weekend. To recap, 19-year-old son went through 6 month rehab, did great, came home to live with us awhile, didn't take too long for everything to go back to the way it was. In retrospect, should have insisted he go to three-quarter house. Anyway. We kicked him out of house a couple of weeks ago. He has no job, no car, no high school diploma. He has several people at our church and my family who really love and care for him and are willing to help him get on his feet if he were only willing. For some reason, he keeps going back to the old druggie friends who he knows do not care about him. Right now he is just going from house to house, and this is mostly like 16 and 17 year old kids because he was a couple of grades behind in school. If I knew where he was staying, I would let the parents know. I know this was a mistake, but Friday he called and said "I am through, I feel like killing myself, I am so depressed, I am ready to go back into rehab, etc". Can I just stay at your house and we will look into rehabs tomorrow. I gave in and said, ok, but it is Salvation Army tomorrow if we don't have a rehab to go to, which he agreed to. Morning came, we called some rehabs, got some good places that he can go to and found out about where to download forms. I had plans for breakfast with a friend, and I told him he was going to have to leave and we would get back together in the afternoon because he was not staying at my house while I was gone. I told him I would take him to Salvation Army in the evening. He left My husband was not home. I get a call from my husband just when I was sitting down to eat, and he told me when he got home, he caught our son and a friend smoking pot in the house and on my computer!! He wouldn't leave, my husband called police, and police told him Dollar General near my house had just called and said our son had stolen lighters and pulled out a knife on the cashier when he confronted him with stealing. Later on he texted me again, saying "I am going to kill myself" and I told him he needs to go to a psychiatric hospital. He said "I am right outside". Just so happens a friend of ours was at our house who is a part of Celebrate Recovery at our church and was a drug addict a long time ago. The friend of ours asked if he could talk to Alex at our house and we said yes. So we let him in so they could talk. So, they talked for about 3 hours. Son seemed to listen some, but he was telling him all kinds of lies. He didn't go to Salvation Army, he found another friend to stay with. I think the suicide threats are manipulation. He has never before even hinted that he was suicidal. I am sure there is a warrant out for his arrest now. I know he definitely needs to go into rehab again. He just has a prepaid phone, and his month runs out tomorrow. Even though I use the phone to make sure he is okay, I considered not renewing it since it would disable him further. It would make him unable to contact anyone. That would mean unable to contact me, but I know he could find a way to contact me if he really wanted to. Right now he is totally ignoring my texts anyway for the most part. I am planning on going to Al-Anon this weekend. I am still working on detaching and not enabling. Thanks for letting me vent!