I started my bioidentical two weeks ago. Dr. said it will take 8 - 12 weeks to see a difference. Things have been REALLY bad. I am just in a really bad place. Even missed work and last week was talked to. They wanted to know if it was something at work that is upsetting me because there is obviously something wrong. I don't sleep. Maybe an hour or two throughout the day. I hide in my room and cry non stop. If I DO come out it is nothing but a fight between everyone. I just can't take it. I just can't go on like this. SO...at one point in the last week, difficult child came to me in my room and said he was sorry, and that he is trying so hard on so many different levels. At school, dealing with this "outside his body feeling", anxiety attacks, friends/drugs...etc. (back up a minute. Many years ago I was on Paxil. It was the best I ever felt in my life. I quit because I felt so good and because of weight gain.) I was on it for about 5 years. Coming off was horrible and swore I couldn't go through that again. I have tried everything and nothing helps me. I have been off for about 5 years now. OK...I told difficult child I was sorry too. And to give this bioidentical a chance to work. If it didn't work, I told him I would try Paxil again. (now one of his teachers take this and told him how great it is. difficult child looks everything up so is informed on medication) difficult child would never consider any medication that has a side affect of weight gain. He is super sensitive of his weight. Anyway, when I said that to him, he said he would try Paxil too. ????? Shocked me. Only our relationship throughout our house just got worse and worse after that conversation. Paxil DID work for me. What do I do? Do I weight the three months to see if Bioidentical helps? Do I call and see if I can take Paxil again? I can't feel like this anymore. Having really bad scary thoughts. I am afraid. I am afraid to even drive to work. I am just in a bad place. But if I did that, how would I know if bioidentical helped? And difficult child taking Paxil ????that just throws me. He looked it up and it targets all his issues. Does this mean he wants to try it? Has anyone had a kid on this? I just don't know what to do. Can't go on like this. I just can't.