Blinded by Starlight

Discussion in 'The Watercooler' started by JJJ, Apr 13, 2011.

  1. JJJ

    JJJ Active Member

    Yesterday I ran into Annie whom I hadn't seen in a few years. Annie is the same age as Kanga.

    I saw Annie get out of the car that she drove by herself to the store. Annie was very happy to see Piglet and I and told us all about how she has been. She finished high school in 3 years through the accelerated program and she has a full scholarship to an Ivy League-type top ranked university. She just won the top international award in her sport (which I had seen in the paper). She was happy, healthy and downright glowing in that beautiful way that only those on the brink of a great adventure can be.

    When I got home, Kanga called. She was grumpy, disrespectful, complaining about having to write a letter to treatement team in order to be moved from Assessment Phase into the regular program cause 'regular sentences are too hard', and very clearly heading toward a life that I would not have chosen in my darkest nightmares.

    The contrast between where we could/would/should have been and where we are was blindingly apparent. Annie may be volunteering at some of Piglet's camps. I hope that Piglet looks at her and dreams of what might be and reaches for the stars.
  2. tiredmommy

    tiredmommy Site Moderator

    That's so sad. {{{Hugs}}}. :crying:
  3. KTMom91

    KTMom91 Well-Known Member

    Aw, JJJ...many hugs.
  4. JJJ

    JJJ Active Member

    I'm not as sad as I thought I would be. It was bittersweet seeing her and I hope we get to see a lot of her this summer. I actually feel motivated to make sure that Piglet has all the support she needs to be more like Annie than Kanga. I had already hired a reading tutor for Piglet for the summer and I was toying with having a little study group since she likes doing things with her friends, maybe a twice a week thing????

    I cannot let Kanga pull me down with violence or with grief. I need to be better than that.
  5. Hound dog

    Hound dog Nana's are Beautiful


    Stinks when it's bittersweet like that. Let it fill you up with hope for piglet, instead of bring you down. Who knows, at some point in the future kanga may turn around and surprise everyone. Stranger things have happened.
  6. susiestar

    susiestar Roll With It


    You have a good attitude about this. It can be really hard to run into the Annie in your life, but I think you are handling it very well. I hope that piglet can be inspired by Annie and becomes determined to reach for her very own Starlight instead of for the dregs the way Kanga seems to be. I also hope that enough time in the dregs will inspire Kanga to find her own Starlight.
  7. TerryJ2

    TerryJ2 Well-Known Member

    Ah, yes. Sigh.
  8. DaisyFace

    DaisyFace Love me...Love me not

    I'm sorry, JJJ -

    What a bittersweet moment that must have been!