i'm packing my easy child up in a bit. got the rest packed, we're all ready to go tmrw very early. i'm having a real hard time with this, i dont' know why. i hate hate leaving where i live. as chaotic as it's been lately it's well ya know home base. i hope i handle this trip well, i really do. i dont' have a whole lotta Jen faith lately lol........ yup ill be packin' my xanax incase i decide to fly outward for a bit no drive thru bars where i'm going..... i'm like a little kid at almost 41 i'm soo scared to leave home, easy child, my new puppy, yea even pain in the butt husband. so scared it wont' work, that i'll be lonely there living there for so long alone. trying real hard to put a positive spin on it think the whole eat, pray, love thing except i didnt' leave my marriage, i wont' be eating awesome meatballs and drinking wine and oh yea throw in the bipolar/eating disorder princess i have!! love you guys!! thanks for getting me to this point.... checks will go out tmrw!! ha!!!!