My condo I had set my mind for and visualized in AZ fell through today. I am not sure, with my credit, if I can even find a place to live now. Seriously. I am not sure where or if I could find a place to live with 3 dogs and my credit - even though I have paid a mortgage for 12 years - the outstanding credit that I have overshadows my good credit. Plus. Matt is not doing so great at Residential Treatment Center (RTC). I can just feel his downward spiral. I do not want him to have to deal with one more hurdle with me moving and then have him plummet into phosph (or worse) again. What the hell do I do? I am so confused now. I thought I wanted this - but now there are too many obstacles. I feel defeated and tired.