Well, thanks to a handy dandy program I put on difficult child's laptop, I'm able to see everything he does on it and he has no idea. I'm getting much more information than I ever wanted but I can't confront what I don't know about. If I didn't have this, I would think he's doing ok after returning from Residential Treatment Facility (RTF), unfortunately, that's not really the case. He has changed his screen name on myspace to "Sniffy Cxxx" and he doesn't have a cold. My guess is that he's sniffin something. Actually, it's more than a guess because in one of his im conversations with a girl, he said that she'd be proud of him because a kid asked him if he "wanted to buy more blow". difficult child said no, but that tells me that he has before. Also, he did a lot of searches to find out about the cough syrup mix Sizzurp. He also asked a girl to bring him some jolly ranchers to school today "for his mix". So right now, I'm sick to my stomach waiting for the school to call to say he's on his way to the hospital, the detention center, dead, or expelled. I can't talk to husband right now because he's away on business and has important meetings today. I've left messages for difficult child's family-based therapist and case manager, and talked with his PO, but he can't come to drug test him today, maybe next week. Not that I think this sizzurp will show on a drug test, but I just don't know what to do. I talked with difficult child last night and said that my instincts tell me that he's getting into drugs, but he won't admit anything. I've gone through his room and backpack but can't find anything. I've also drug tested him at home, but they've been negative. Obviously, we did it on the wrong days to catch him at anything. I am at a loss and have no idea what to do now. I feel like he's on the edge of disaster and I can't do anything to stop it. Any ideas?