I'm with Abbey.
If I die an intimely death, you'll know why.
As for your husband...? I'm so fed up with mine right now I don't think I am capable of a fair thought towards another. But hugs and love regardless. I am sure you have been in positions before that you felt were insurmountable, and obviously you made it out of those. I'm sure it feels impossible, but I have faith that someday you'll be looking back on this obstacle, too.
We're here.