Lately I feel hopeless. I used to feel this way every once in awhile, but it passed and it was few and far between. I am also irritable, and angry sometimes. With all the changes I have made, they have both positive and negative sides, but it has been hard. What has hit me the most was difficult child trying cigarettes. If he tries this now , what will it be next? I just feel like there is no point. I have to go take an A & P test in 1 hr, and I just really don't care. This is not how I used to be. I have gotten good grades. I made an appointment to see a therapist on Monday, and I have not idea what to expect. Part of me feels like what's the point? I'll just sit there and whine and complain. What good will that do? The other part of me then tells the pessismist to shut up and go away. I just want to go to bed and cry. I wonder if I am depressed, but then part of me says who wouldn't be? Sorry to ramble and whine so much, I am not in a good space right now. Hope I posted in the right forum.