difficult child 2 is continuing to be withdrawn, anxious and is obviously isolating in the psychiatric hospital. He did agree to start new medication but that's it. So the discharge plan calls for him to come home Friday. So far no offer of an out of home placement has materialized. I'm not surprised. I called the one place everyone has recommended. $13,000 a month and our health plan would pay zero toward that. So no we won't be putting him in Residential Treatment Center (RTC) ourselves. easy child was in tears this morning - which is very unusual. She is always very private and hides her distress. But on the way to school when I said she looked sad she started to cry. I feel so bad about this - I wanted to cradle her in my lap and make it all better. This is exactly the opposite of what she wants and so I just sat there and asked short, simple questions and waited and waited for her short, simple answers. She feels angry. She feels guilty and partly to blame for her twin's behavior. I told her that he was the only one responsible for his choices and told her that I felt she was not picking fights with him or making it worse like used to happen sometimes. I tiptoed around the group home question and would gladly smack the CPS worker for bringing that up with her. It has clearly increased her distress big time. She asked when he was going to be released and I told her probably Friday. She said "so what, he can come home and blow up every day again?" I told her that wife and I were working hard to figure out how to manage things better so he didn't blow up. She just looked away and silently cried. I offered my hand and she slowly reached out and just held my fingers with hers for a little while. I thought about offering to have her stay home for the day but controlled that impulse. She will be distracted and probably feel much better if she goes to school. She is a total social butterfly and has a huge crowd of friends. I hope she doesn't just feel alone in a crowd. She got out of the car and went to school without any bounce in her step.