Hey all. She is scheduled to come home on Friday, unless there is an incident. The doctor doesn't want to give her an exact date of discharge as he feels she will regress, so he has told her a few days. She, in the meantime is driving me nuts!! She calls 10 times a day questioning me about her discharge. I want to tell her just so she will leave me alone about it!!! (I won't) I am very anxious about her coming home. She has been in the hospital 6 weeks and it has been so peaceful in my life and in my home. I didn't have to worry about who she was with, what she was doing or if she was making bad choices. My home has been peaceful and quiet, no chaos. It has been great. And of course I feel guilty for feeling this way, but as many of you probably feel similar, living with her is like living in the eye of a storm. I feel as though we are all bracing ourselves for her return. The poor thing is so excited to get back home and yet the rest of us are preparing to walk on eggshells once again!!! The worst part is watching my 7 year old son go from missing his sister to resenting her once she is here. She just loves this kid so much and it breaks my heart for her that after a while of her nonsense he just does not want to be around her. Understandably to you and I as he IS only 7, but to her it is devastating. Right now he misses her and cant wait for her to come home, however once she is here his feelings change. I try to explain to him that her brain has a boo boo and she can't help it, but like I said, he is 7, he doesn't really understand that. I don't think a 7 year old child has the maturity to feel empathy for someone who is cursing about the house causing chaos. Shoot - it's hard as heck for me to find empathy within myself when she is like that!!! It's funny because on one hand I feel so disconnected when she is not home, I feel empty inside and really miss her. On the other hand I know how hard it is to live with her and it terrifies me to have her here. I am so worried that she will begin making her bad choices and end up in a situation that I can't get her out of. The irony of it is that I know she will have to "hit rock bottom" so to speak, before her life will get any better. I am just so scared of what that bottom will be. Aaaah, the roller coaster of emotions will begin again....... I hate this ride!!!!! Anyway, just needed to vent a little. Thanks for listening. God bless.