difficult child had his psychiatrist appointment today and she insisted he would try SSRIs. difficult child has an understanding that he has no choice but comply even though he is very upset about it. He was prescribed sertraline 50 mg a day. He has been very wary of SSRIs and because of that he 'was given a chance to show' he can do without. And now he feels like a total failure. It's not any more even about being scared of side effects, that of course is part of it, but somehow he has ended up thinking that he is a total looser if he has to take SSRIs. He also doesn't like that he feels he has no choice in the matter. He is not being rational and I guess part of it is, that he would so much want to be like others and accepting his challenges is very hard for him. And he had made SSRIs much bigger issue in his head than they really are. I tried to point out to him that he most likely does know many 'just normal' people who are using SSRIs. I think our current ratio is something like 7 % of population being on them. He certainly isn't the only one. And let's face it, I can see why his psychiatrist things he needs them. He showed me some of his 'paperwork.' His self reported daily anxiety figures have been really high, so have his 'irritability index' his trainers estimate, the physical things they record imply to very high stress, his sleeping diary is miserable, Ambien use been high, apparently his executive skills have backslidden etc. Of course part of it could have been corrected by just season ending and sport stress getting less. But then again his possible transfer is not making things stress free for him this off season. And if new medications with potential side effects have to be tried, it's much better to do so off season. I can see all that but I also feel bad for him being so disappointed on himself and also hate that he feels so overrun by his doctors and feels that his opinion doesn't matter.