hi she still isnt' eating. spoke to her peditrician today, we missed appointment because difficult child was up all night and finally crashed at 8 a.m. pyschiatrist rescheduled me for tmrw. they seem to feel that because she hasnt' eaten in so long now if she suddenly began eating shed' get very sick. so, i found a clinic in oregon for food phobias etc. yet their trying to find one here in n.y. and closer for us to go to. so it seems as though the general consensus (can't spell for ***) is that she'll go into hospital either day treatment or admit into clinic which isnt' pysch ward. i'll have confirmation tmrw night or thurs am. on that. me, i'm totally swollen. it's not good. arms, knees, and now new nodules on my feet which are making walking interesting somewhat, i am not sleeping that well and overall i feel like a piece of garbage. my hearts beating away even when i think i'm in calm mode which keeps me up at night. it's like my bodies falling apart on me lol. i'm laughing yet i'm a wreck. going to dr thurs morning to get some type of medication to keep me calm, and also get script to finally diagnosis me whether it's ms or rheumatoid arthritis that is ripping into me at this point. so we'll do blood for arthritis first cause that's easy. bayer and over counter stuff isn't working anymore.