difficult child 1 leaves for boot in a day. I have been blind, deaf, and dumb in dealing with him the past 7 weeks. If I don't, my blood boils. My goal has been to get him gone, and for us to part on a good note (we've had some "scraps" in the past few weeks - we should have had a lot more). He hasn't been home more than a couple hours in that time, he's spent $1500 (his money, not mine!), and I think he's drank most of it, he's taken groceries from the house to the tune of several hundred dollars worth to feed his buddies, I know he drives when he's been drinking (which I would stop if I could catch him), it just makes my skin crawl. He blew in this morning, cursed at the dog, ignored wee difficult child when he wanted a hug (been very cold to wee difficult child, and his leaving is breaking wee difficult child's heart), slammed 3 doors on his way to his bedroom, changed clothes, and left. Wee difficult child shouted "Love you big bro" and difficult child 1 replied "yeah, whatever". I'm ready for him to be gone. The only thing that makes me sad is that its breaking wee difficult child's heart. Other than that, I am cold. I think I'm putting up a good front, and I intend to keep track of his activities and write him letters while he's gone, etc, but I'm wondering how long it will take before I miss him. As of right now, it feels like its going to be a while. And that makes me feel slightly less than mother of the year... Thanks for listening.