When my difficult child argues with me and the stuff she says and the way she says it like I am beneath her, I am dog sh*t on her shoe, it makes me the angriest I've ever been in my life. I could do horrible, horrible things when she does this. She has no idea how far she has pushed me to the point where i understand why some animals eat their young. I never had such blind rage before in my life. She doesn't understand she has bullied me and taunted me for years and eventually a person does snap. I am so sorry for writing such strong words, it just happened and I am reeling. I wish I could post a recording of it because I could almost guarantee you, none of you all ever seen a difficult child this bad with the mouth and I say that knowing you all have seen close to everything. I am telling you, blind, blind rage of the nastiness and vulgarities that fly out of her mouth and in rapid succession which last for a LONG time and the WAY she says it....I'm telling you guys, I'm out of my mind right now. She just doesn't know when to stop and how much she is damaging any relationship I would ever want to have with her once I'm gone. She's about to hit the REAL reality ladies, real soon. Her world is about to change real soon and she is going to come begging back to me and I can't wait to be able to "gently hang up the phone". I'm sorry , I know I should not be resentful or angry in my future dealings with her, but I'm sorry, that's a task that is too tall for me. I am going to be ANGRY with her for a LONG time and she is going to have to come back crawling on her hands and knees if she ever wants me in her life again. She has said enough to me to traumatize me for 10 lifetimes. It's nothing for her anymore to keep throwing my sexual abuse up in my face time and time again, mocking me for it, saying it was my fault...just to hurt me. What kind of anger would that put into you all?