I have my days. Some are good, and some are terrible. The hard thing is when they are terrible, they really are terrible. I'm wondering if anyone else is suffering from depression or anxiety after years of dealing with their difficult child? I know I'm more anxious. Having my daughter runaway, lie and basically turn the world upside down has playing into my normally anxious state. When the phone rings, my heart still jumps. My middle child locks the door ALL THE TIME. It's kind of sad. But I know why he does it. My doctor prescribed Zoloft for me, but I have yet to take it. Partly anxiety for me and partly I don't want to be on any drug. Maybe I'm stubborn.