Hi, was reading some of you guys post and it made me feel better to know people who deal with adult drug addicted kids also. Most of my friends they have “normal” family lives with their kids. I so envy them, even old friends who were not the best influence on their kids have great kids now. How did I miss this when we tried to raise ours? My oldest son who is 42 has been an addict since 20. He has been in and out of rehab so many times. He’s gone to prison when he was 23 for 18 months for grand larceny. He’s a liar, thief and won’t hold down a job. He has a 10 yr old son who I am raising since he was 2. I have let my son lives with us on and off but it has gotten so bad that I will not let him live here. I have got to protect his son from seeing how his dad is and continues to be. It hurts him and now that he is getting older he knows what is wrong with his dad. I have guardianship of his son. My son and girlfriend found an apartment 30 miles away and it’s ok sometimes. They are both addicts and lived off of tax refunds, but that is coming to an end. They take suboxtine from a dr cause my son has Medicaid (because of his son). He also gets adderal and klonapins. He sells to make rent. Now they’ve gotten into fight and her family will allow her to live with them but I won’t let him. I’m just worried that if something happens to him it would kill me and hopefully my grandson won’t hold it against me. I have lived with this vicious cycle for 20 yrs and I’m tired so tired. My husband of 43 yrs works out of town and comes home on weekends. I also have a middle son who is in Federal prison for the last 5 yrs and still has 3 more to go for drugs. Then i have my youngest son who has seen his brothers waste their life and wants no part of it and does great with working. He thinks I’m crazy for worrying about his oldest brother cause of how awful he treated him from the time he was 12 to 15. Thank you for letting me vent and any thoughts would be appreciated.