I just re-read what I wrote, and I realise it was confusing. I meant IF the swallowing problem was resolved now, how could you (or anyone) be sure, because of the other stuff that seems to be in there now? It's like, IF she was wearing a bright red dress, how would you ever know, if the room is in pitch darkness?
As for difficult child perceiving you to be in control, (I should have said 'perceiving' and not 'seeing') it's very much a matter of her perception, which from all you have said, seems to be very much what she WANTS to see (or perceive). She's been calling you (maybe not in the last few days - you haven't said - bet definitely before) and then you come in an sort out the problems. Don't get me wrong, I would have done what you have done too, especially given some of the stuff that was happening, with her anxiety and other issues apparently being totally ignored by staff especially in the early stages. You charged in one night in your pyjamas, didn't you? Your aim was to make it clear to staff, that you are on the job. Trouble is, difficult child also knew you were on the job (which shouldn't have been a problem, you would think - but if the doctor is right, then it looks like BIG problem). OK, she's a kid, you want her to know you haven't abandoned her. But there's a lot going on in that little head, and I don't think even the doctors have worked it out yet. And I'm thinking, it's almost a Catch 22 situation you've found yourself in.
I feel I need to keep reinforcing - I am not critical of anything you have done. I would have done the same, I am sure of it. And as for your posting all the time at the moment - again, you need to, things are tough at the moment and I am glad you're keeping us up to date, I'm worried about you all. Go ahead, you are not wearing out your friendships here.
As for whether they are being overly harsh with her - I'm at a loss there myself. It does sound harsh, but do they get results that you can confirm? What feedback have you had from other parents? True, your difficult child's problems are subtly different. Or so they have seemed. I'm sorry, I can't advise you to pull her out, and I just don't know enough to say, leave her there. Not for certain. It's just caution at the moment, I guess, that has me siding with "leave it a while longer". That, and lack of real alternatives.
You're the one on the spot. But husband has also been on the spot, and he seems to have been telling you to give them more time. Or is he not on the spot enough, do you think, to have a good enough idea? If you think he doesn't get it, then bear in mind - he gets it better than I can, he knows difficult child personally a lot better than I do, and he has at least been up there and seen it for himself.
The other thing you have to consider, is what else can you do right now? What choices do you have? Again, you may have some ideas up your sleeve that I might not know about, especially given the way your mind has undoubtedly been running on overdrive with your concerns; it does tend to produce ideas out of nowhere sometimes, when you are desperate for any options to materialise.
Something I've suggested before - write a list of pros and cons, of the various choices. Include the ridiculous choices (such as getting back with exH - give yourself a laugh). It does help give you some perspective! But putting it in writing can actually help you really examine everything, and stop those wheels spinning.
When the doctor suggested family therapy with exH and you then said, "You mean, with the guy who tried to beat me up wile I had baby difficult child in my arms?" did the doctor keep insisting that family therapy with exH was still a good idea? Or did he seem to back down, even a bit? If he kept insisting just as hard, then I think the doctor has some idea in mind that he hasn't got across well to you. But if he backed off, even a bit, then yes, I think he's clutching at straws.
You're not crazy. Maybe everyone else is.
Marg