I still seem to be in over my head ~ in fact things are getting worse before they get better. I'm so grateful that my brother & sister in law took over as financial POA for me as I'm not keeping up with bills while spending as though husband were still alive & bringing in a salary. I'm going to be put on an allowance of sorts while they sort things out. For that I'm very relieved as the dog trainer for Lenny (my service dog) talked me into purchasing a doggy treadmill. Another $500 out the door. I bought 2, count 'em, 2 dogs. I can't afford 2 dogs & didn't talk to anyone or ask anyone for their help before I jumped in... Now I'm in the unenviable position of having to (most likely at this point) sell kt's (well really mine) Lhasa Apso as he's interfering with Lenny's service dog duties. Plus there was this adventure of a rabbit dying in my back yard last week ~ a fight ensued between Lenny & Teddy (the Lhasa); the end result was a $200 vet bill. by the way, do not put you hand between fighting dogs ~ I have 9 puncture wounds in my hands, some very infected. Going back to MD tomorrow for another xray & an updated tetanus shot. It comes down to taking care of me; not buying a dog because kt got tears & manipulative over a 2nd dog she's not taking care of or exercising. Not giving into wm's continual demands on his terms, not mine. I really believe I'm going to go thru the legal process of TPRing wm as I can no longer keep up with his demands; the needs for his many meetings. I will be his mother but the legal, custodial & guardian issues will be out of my hands. Today I'm thankful for that. There are many meetings & legal issues to work out before this occurs however the more I think about it the better it sounds. I really do love this boy, I cannot parent him with-o husband here. For some reason husband kept him a lot more "balanced" for lack of a better word, than I can. I'm a woman you see & he has little to no respect for women. My mind & body seems to have shut down; especially my mind. My ability to think things through clearly & with-o extreme emotion. The tweedles have taken their toll; more importantly I have allowed it to happen. Thanks for the ear, shoulder. I wish I could contribute more ~ just cannot remember much of late that I can offer. Sometimes a hug just isn't enough for a struggling parent.