is killing me. I'm stiff, I ache, I'm tired, listeless, detached and just blech. My joints are usually a little stiff in the morning, but this is nuts. All night Sat and all day yesterday and now today, all my joints ache, a serious deep ache and they are so stiff. Mostly my neck, back, and knees, but a little bit of my elbows, hips, ankles and wrists. I know I have lamented about my monthly visitor before and she just arrived yesterday - do you think there is a connection by any chance? I am in perimeno and my gyno gave me Ponstel to help with pain and flow, but my regular DR said to not take the prescribed dose because at my age (I hate when they say that), which is ONLY 45, it could be a dangerous risk for stroke. So, of course, I take next to nothing now because I'm paranoid of having a stroke...not that I can understand why she would think I am a candidate for stroke, but why not be cautious, right? So, I have all this joint pain, my insides feel like they are coming loose, and I am TIRED. Also, I stopped taking the wellbutrin because all I have is 300 mg and it makes me extremely edgy and in fact, I think it makes me even more depressed, bordering on morose. The 150mg was good but then I kind of hit a plateau, so that why the gyno bumped me up to 300, plus she was trying to help me with my once a month "mean, cranky, b!!ch" stuff - didn't work. I don't really know what I expect writing this, except maybe for some positive healing thoughts for the day. I have a physical set up for Feb 6th or 8th or something, so I hesitate to call in early. Maybe I should. Thanks. ps: Also, I have come to the realization that difficult child will likely be getting kicked out this coming weekend. She's complying with nothing and it's gone downhill since she returned from her dad's place. I see no alternatives at this point. H is hesitant to kick her out because he knows she will end up up at her loser boyfriend's house and then will feel trapped and settle into a dangerous situation, probably become a big pothead and get knocked up. I don't want those things either, but her phantom behavior at the moment and feeling used and being treated as if we're the devil has really worn me down. I can't seem to get h to understand what this has been doing to me. If she can't get her act together than I really want her out. She's out most of the time anyway.