My kid is back to being a PITA after great summer. But issues seem to be mostly other than addiction based. And he hasn't slipped in last year. He even got himself over very rough patch for him last spring without relapsing and using skills he has been thought in therapy very well. And it certainly doesn't help anyone for me to worry about relapsing, but I can't help myself. I try to be rational, try to remind myself that there is nothing I can do, that few relapses or slips are likely to happen with difficult child but even that would not be the end of the world, that he in fact has slipped surprisingly little and with little damage. But everywhere I look, there seems to be just people relapsing and that makes me feel hopeless. Both here, in my real life and with some local celebrities whose life I have been following have had a lot of relapses this month. I don't know why this is hitting me so hard just now. Especially hard hitting have been those two local celebrities even though I don't personally know either. Both are/were top athletes and because of my difficult child I tend to pay more attention to troubled athletes, how they are doing, how they are treated by teams and organisations etc. Other one was my childhood idol. I had his posters on my wall. After his career he has been miserable drunk, worse than most. Even during his career he was a total difficult child, he has severe ADHD and learning difficulties and has been alcoholic for a long time. He is also a violent drunk. Very common and sad story shared with many people in every bar. Except he happens to have several Olympic gold medals and he was arguably the greatest athlete his sport has ever seen. His life has been disaster after disaster for a long time and every disaster has been on the front pages of our tabloids. But last two years were good for him, maybe best he ever had. He was sober and productive, finally getting some sense to his life. Until he relapsed this week. Other one is younger. He had all the promise, but never made it to Olympic medals (wasn't far though, fourth at best.) Did give us sport lovers many great moments anyway. He also has problems with alcohol, but it is clear that is not all. He haven't published his diagnosis like that my childhood idol did, but it is very clear he has severe social issues. Either something on autism spectrum or social anxieties, maybe both. He is apparently also intellectually gifted. Reminds my difficult child quite a lot in some ways, but seems to have even worse problems. Of course my difficult child still has time to develop his to worse, this kid was still doing okay in my difficult child's age. This guy is deadly afraid of reporters, at times couldn't say a word in interviews, at times literally run from reporters, couldn't keep any kind of eye-contact etc. Reportedly he also had a lot of problems with his team mates (his sport is individual sport, but like most individual athletes he actually had to spend more time with the team mates than guys on team sports have to. Social relationships in individual sports are often even more difficult to handle than in team sports as odd as it may sound.) Also he was doing very well after rougher times, everything looked very good and then - relapse, and everything in drain. I feel so bad for his parents who have given their all, same with other people who have done so much to help him, even if our sport federation is not getting too many points on handling his situation. But many coaches etc. have really tried so hard with him. All this just makes me so sad and helpless and at times it is difficult to believe my difficult child could be the one who actually makes it through.