I haven't posted in a long time, but read the board almost daily. difficult child ran away Saturday night after she was asked to go to her room for unsuitable behavior. She traveled about a mile and 1/2 on her bike and planned on living with the family she rode to. I get a call from the Mom and go to pick her up. She doesn't want to live with us anymore. She wants to live with any of our neighbors and do chores for them. (Fantasy land) , but I think she believes it is that easy. She puts on a big drama show about how she is not going home with me until I tell her if she doesn't hop in the car, Dad will pick her up. She hops right in. We go home and talk Sunday morning. I don't think she has a clue as to how dangerous it was for her to take off like she did. I think she does now, but clearly at the time she got the urge to flee, it didn't matter. I feel manipulated, embarassed, frustrated, worn down and very resentful of difficult child right now. I have come to expect this type of behavior as normal, because this is my reality. Everything is so hard with her. I just don't have the energy right now to parent her. Dad is worn out too. Is this the best her behavior is going to ever be? She has an EEG scheduled Thursday AM and she must go in sleep deprived so I get to be up with her from 3am until testing time at 8am. I put a call into psychiatrist yesterday, haven't heard anything back. If she is this unstable on all these medications, what good are they doing? I really dread the thought of the upcoming school year. She will be repeating 4th grade with an IEP in place so hopefully this year will be better. I just really wonder what she is like without all the drugs in place. I haven't seen her clean in 2 years. Thanks for the vent, just feeling discouraged.