So my son has a court date tomorrow on one of his charges and I am out of town on vacation - finally after getting out of school. I e-mailed his attorney and his attorney acted like it was more legal maneuvering trying to get the DA to reduce sentence from 25 years. They seem to be not budging even though ARC has written a letter to the court and the attorney on my son's behalf due to his intellectual disability. I have not been to all of these hearings as I was doing my clinical hours and couldn't miss, but this time I feel guilty because I'm having fun. I was at the last pre-trial two weeks ago. I feel so ignorant not knowing all of the law and the machinations, but really this is just another form of trying to control it. What difference is it if I know the law? I'm not the one that seems to need to learn it. Geez - I have this fear my son will accept something and I can't save him. This is just the pervasive fear of my life - my not being able to save him. I think with some time and rest from the grind I have been under I will be able to go to my Al-Anon meetings and take time for me. At least in the last month my son seems to have begun to realize the drugs and people he was associating with are the key component to him being there. I just tell him that I'm sure he will figure it out and that I love him. Thanks for listening.