Yes, I think it is normal to doubt ourselves at times. Especially when we have people constantly putting us down and telling us we are doing it all wrong. Ya know, I don't recall much from the dark days. I am out of the trenches at the moment, and trying to heal from the PTSD that it has brought into my life. I now have anxiety issues and whenever I sense difficult child going downhill again I almost freeze in time. It is like I am in slow motion. I tell ya taking care of a challenging kid is tough, tough, tough and many will never know just how tough. Be good to yourself! That is all you can control!