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<blockquote data-quote="SuZir" data-source="post: 651975" data-attributes="member: 14557"><p>ThreeShadows, that piece is beautiful. Thank You!</p><p></p><p>My friend's suicide is one of those that are easier to understand. One of my other old friends said that considering the circumstances, with her, it was almost like a natural death.</p><p></p><p>She was very ill. She had multiple chronic health conditions, most damaging ones being MS and bipolar type 1. But there were also others. Her MS had advanced to secondary progressive and was causing her already a lot of disabilities and progressing faster than with many. And while drugs were rather effective to keep full blown manias away when she got older (for long time she was hospitalised because of mania about once a year despite medications) they weren't that effective (which to my understanding is typical) for depressive side. She was also habitual benzo user that of course caused lots of issues. Her illnesses, benzos and side effects of other drugs she had to use took quite a toll cognitively and that was hard for someone who was once exceedingly smart. And with her issues, things were not going to get better but instead she was regressing quickly. So you can understand why she decided to end it all when she still could.</p><p></p><p>Due to her issues and choices she had also lost lots of things most important to her. She wasn't able to work in last fifteen years. She was a musician and she lost that too. She loved animals, was a great rider and dog person, but that too was lost. She always wanted to have many kids but due to her issues she chose not to. Many relationships were in ruins because her issues and behaviours especially during manias. Her finances were ruined, she did commit many criminal acts and caused lots of pain to many people.</p><p></p><p>It is just so sad and unfair. She was such a talented and spectacular person before things started to get wrong.</p><p></p><p>But she left also many beautiful memories. Me and my old friends will carry those rest of our lives.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="SuZir, post: 651975, member: 14557"] ThreeShadows, that piece is beautiful. Thank You! My friend's suicide is one of those that are easier to understand. One of my other old friends said that considering the circumstances, with her, it was almost like a natural death. She was very ill. She had multiple chronic health conditions, most damaging ones being MS and bipolar type 1. But there were also others. Her MS had advanced to secondary progressive and was causing her already a lot of disabilities and progressing faster than with many. And while drugs were rather effective to keep full blown manias away when she got older (for long time she was hospitalised because of mania about once a year despite medications) they weren't that effective (which to my understanding is typical) for depressive side. She was also habitual benzo user that of course caused lots of issues. Her illnesses, benzos and side effects of other drugs she had to use took quite a toll cognitively and that was hard for someone who was once exceedingly smart. And with her issues, things were not going to get better but instead she was regressing quickly. So you can understand why she decided to end it all when she still could. Due to her issues and choices she had also lost lots of things most important to her. She wasn't able to work in last fifteen years. She was a musician and she lost that too. She loved animals, was a great rider and dog person, but that too was lost. She always wanted to have many kids but due to her issues she chose not to. Many relationships were in ruins because her issues and behaviours especially during manias. Her finances were ruined, she did commit many criminal acts and caused lots of pain to many people. It is just so sad and unfair. She was such a talented and spectacular person before things started to get wrong. But she left also many beautiful memories. Me and my old friends will carry those rest of our lives. [/QUOTE]
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