It must be a combination of female stuff ... I'm agitated and have a list of complaints a mile long. Since this is the only place I can safely list them, here goes- 1) Bifocals- what fool invented these? Well, maybe it's just mine- I don't know and that's a big part of the problem. I just got my first pair and I can't see diddly out of the lower half. If I hold a magazine a certain distance, in a certain position, and hold my head a certain way, I can read about 3 inches on that page. Whooopeee!! I told them man at the place I bought them- he said I was just getting used to them. HUMMM.. 2) The computer has this darn trojan/virus/ spyware again. ARGHHH!! And- it's the type that as it is advertising to sell software to rid your computer of unwanted materrial, it pops up heavy porn all over the screen. Wonderful! 3) My boss was supposed to get back to me on the job/medication insurance issue. Then he went on vacation and didn't leave me enough work to do... 4) I'm still bugged about my bro sending this card. It isn't so much this "one" card. It is that it is obvious that he won't go away and leave things alone. And, I can see through how he words things in these cards to difficult child- "he can't help how difficult child's mom (me) feels". Like he isn't trying to instigate something? His actions prove otherwise. I understand that difficult child has rights to certain realtionships with family members. However, difficult child has said he doesn't want to call his uncle. And if he did want that or more, this is still my house, my phone, my mailbox, and although difficult child is not my property, he is my 13 yo son and as long as I am legally responsible for his actions, I will have the final say-so over how much somebody else is going to be involved in his life- short of a court order. The judge didn't even put the agreement for difficult child to be allowed to call if he wanted (with me listening in) in a court order. So, technically speaking, I don't have to do that. Fortunately, difficult child hasn't wanted to. Bro just wants to instigate stuff then act like he had nothing to do with it- he's just trying to "rescue" difficult child from me. 5) We're supposed to visit my mom in a few weeks. Our relationship has been pretty strained since she contributed to my bro starting all that last year. Really, it's been strained for years. I feel like she sold out our relationship over and over again through the years- and she knows I feel that way. she apologized and acted like she was so sorry and loved us so much last year. I have been trying to rebuild some kind of relationship with her, figuring that she IS my mother, no matter what, and she won't always be here. So, I've tried to make sure that difficult child and I see her more often, but still keep visits short, stress-free, and simple. I did tell her that we would like to take her to a dinner show (comedy) while we were there this trip. She said she would like to go. Then, last weekend, she calls and says the only 2 friends (really, they are 25 years younger than her and mostly just help her out when she needs it), would like to meet me. She says they offered to cook out and have us all over for dinner while we're visiting. Dummy me just says that sounds great and accepts the invite. Then, mom says that they all felt we should meet so they would feel more comfortable calling me when/if something happens to my mom. Ohhh. By the next morning, I had those feelings all through my body that something is wrong with this story. First, to meet only requires them coming over for 1/2 hour, the way I see it. If we're going to talk funeral planning, we aren't going to do it over dinner the first time we meet. Second, my mom just wouldn't go about things this way. What she would do, is ask them to spend time with difficult child and me to see if they think anything is wrong with difficult child or my parenting. Yep- that would be her. That HAS been her. And I really don't want to spend one of my vacation evenings that way. And difficult child would just be trying to entertain himself without either family focus or other kids around. So, I emailed my mom and asked as graciously as I could - tried to bow out of this, saying I really thought we'd be too tired and we'd prefer to stay home and relax and why didn't they just stop over for a little while to meet rather than going through the trouble of cooking for us. She emails back and says -but they already said they would (we're talking 3 1/2 weeks from now), they are going to grill steak for us, she just doesn't know what she would say to them now about it because they offered and they will even have to work that day, but if I really don't want to, just tell her asap. Geez... 6) I can't get my color scheme to something I like on my profile page. I feel so cyber-challenged!!! 7) I just don't like feeling like I am getting old....my body aches half the time. It hurts to carry in groceries. Fortunately, difficult child helps but I'm starting to think about how things will be in the future when he won't be here to help. I liked things a lot better when he was young and the biggest problem with him was a call from school or day care. My body didn't hurt then. Now, I'm suffering pms and menopause at the same time- and I didn't even know that was possible. I'm grumpy and impatient. I. DO. NOT. WANT. TO GET. ANY. OLDER. LOL!!