husband is now Ex-husband. I can post under my real name again. Have to change the profile though. difficult child was very concerned about me although I felt nothing. He was very sweet and gentle to me on the phone, concerned that I would be hurt again. It's so wonderful to see that side of him come out. Loving his momma. I refused eye contact with him at all. I have nothing left to say and he never listened when we were married, why would he NOW? I have completely lost Step-difficult child. I am no longer allowed contact with her. Ex-H doesn't know of our secret phone calls, of the secrets she told me, of how close we became toward the end. I ache for her because I know her hidden pain, but there is nothing I can do. Her mother and I talk, so I am still a part of her life, though silently. I will follow her progress, but am hoping that once HE settles into his new life with Chewbaka, he will let me go visit her. This will all be through her mother. I will never speak to him again. Hope to have dinner with difficult child to celebrate tonight. He may have an NA meeting though. Priorities. Whew/phew. On to bigger and better things! Thanks for the support and listening! HURRAY!