I just wanted to let everyone know that I probably won't be posting from tomorrow thru Friday but will be reading occasionally. Unrelated to that- I don't know how this happens but I forwarded my mail from my old address yet some people are able to get the new address and send stuff directly to this new one even though very few people were actually given this new address. Then, I opened a PO box and gave that to my mother instead of the house address. Something is up with my bro because he ALWAYS send difficult child a card at Christmas, b-day and halloween. The card was forwarded at Christmas because of course, I never told anyone in the family I moved except my mother and supposedly, she hasn't spoken to me bro in a few years. But no card was forwarded or received at the house for difficult child's b-day from my bro. This means he either has found out where difficult child is and writing him in Department of Juvenile Justice or something. I doubt seriously my bro would "give up" on trying to establish contact. Honestly, difficult child doesn't need my bro's manipulation and lies or to hear him trashing me. But since I know I can only prolong that for so long, I'm mainly concerned about it if difficult child returns to live at home, which is unlikely the way I'm thinking right now. difficult child is old enough to know I have always loved him and taken care of him no matter what my bro tells him but he sure doesn't need more negativity in his life or "justification" to use me or anyone else. I have no clue how to approach things as far as not feeling comfortable about difficult child coming to live with me again. I feel guilty about it but right now, that's just how I feel.