Need some practical advice here. I'm having those jolting wake-up-at-2-a.m.-terrified-of-thank you's-future moments and I expect them to only get worse as the big 18 approaches (March). Long story short, he will end up homeless and uneducated by his choice (with a bit of a shove from us as we've decided *not* to request continued funding thru the state for his "treatment", nonexistant as it is at this point). I'm anticipating it is going to get very ugly and .... I just need some suggestions to use for those late night sessions. I'm especially terrified because he continues to see suicide as a rational alternative when life gets tough. As always, it's all or nothing with him. He won't do a darn thing to improve his lot. Need self-talk ideas here. How do you survive the fear? I think I've got detachment down cold and my resolve is strong but neither of those helps a bit with the absolute terror I'm feeling about his well-being.