This was the pain doctor. They changed my medications around again. Took me off the morphine and put me on the long acting, time released oxycodine aka Oxycontin. 30 mgs, 2 times a day. I dont know how I feel about this. I talk to my doctor there from my heart. I told him that I can tell its about 2/3 weeks before its time for me to get back to my ortho doctor to get my steroid shots into my knees and my back because they have started to hurt me again. The steroid shots have helped me but I can only get them every three months. I dont know how long they will continue to do that either. Well the doctor told me I was on such a low dose of morphine that while it sounded high to me, and it would be if I was getting it IM or IV, it was so low swallowed that I was probably only getting 3 or 4 mgs actually in my blood stream and that wasnt doing me a bit of good. We needed to increase my medications so that I more medications in my blood stream in a steadier dose and something much stronger. Sigh. I told him I was so very worried about that because I was worried about me only be 50 now and with my family history of longevity, I was afraid I might live to be in my 70s or later and be really in pain and not have medications available to go to. The doctor said he wished he had more people who thought like me but honestly I didnt have anything to worry about, that I could never reach max doses on anything from now till then and I had plenty of other drugs to try that were stronger that we had never even tried. I was still in the light drugs. Hah...lol. Seem strong to me! I am also still getting the 90 breakthrough pain medications a month. I should be a zombie. There is a new medication coming out on the market soon that is straight hydrocodone and there will be none of the tylenol in it at all. Just straight narcotic and nothing else. It should be the bomb. I was a bit worried about the issues of people getting a hold of it and abusing it but the doctor said there will be the same stuff in it that morphine and the new oxycontin has in it so people cant crush it or snort is. This will also be a long acting form which will be good. Tylenol is such a horrible medication which I think should be sold behind the counter. As much medication as I have been on, its a damned wonder my liver isnt dead. So now I have to get used to this new OxyContin which feels much stronger to me...along with the fact that they just increased my xanaxXR this past week. I increased that on Tuesday and then started the Oxy on friday night. Let me tell you, I was one loopy person today. I dont think I am going to be driving until I start feeling a bit better. I imagine it wont take long before it stables out but until then I am going to take it easy. The doctor had a good point. We need to get my pain level to a point to a point that I have a quality of life that isnt just laying in bed and not even being able to stand up to wash dishes or cook dinner. Or walk around a grocery store without feeling like I am dying. I have a feeling its going to take me a bit to get there though. Tony thinks I should be just fine after one pill though...sigh.